its really weird to think how much we talk… I never really thought about it until now because we haven’t talked in 6 days.. It’s literally killing me inside that you aren’t talking to me, because I don’t know what I did wrong. I’ve honestly never felt this way about someone in my entire life.. I feel so comfortable around you and whenever were together it seems like nothing else matters. You make me feel so special and I miss you so much. it probably sounds pathetic, but I miss getting a phone call from you every night at 930 and I miss being in your arms and you calling me baby. I just want you back, I don’t know what I did wrong. I want to fix this more than anything.
I just realized how fucked up I am… Looking at all my posts about you.. It goes from me falling for you, to me hating your guts, to me wanting you back, to me thinking your the biggest douche bag ever, to me being in love with you, and now to me apologizing and wanting to make this work.
That’s so fucked up… whats wrong with me?
I don’t know how you do it… but I always end up back in your arms… even after all of our fights, we always make up and forgive each other. I don’t know what happened this time… maybe you had enough of me, maybe I said something wrong, maybe you realized that you dont want to make this work… I just dont know. I blame myself for this. I shouldnt have over reacted yesterday… it was stupid and I’m sorry. I just want our old relationship back. I want to go over to your house and just hang out with you and play stupid games and listen to you play guitar.. I miss you, I miss us. I really hope that this is just a misunderstanding and that everything will go back to normal… I’m sorry I know that this is all my fault.